Reason?

Have I found Reason or are these merely the musings of a mad man?

These holes in the ground remind me of when you used to tell me that if I dug a tunnel in the side yard, that I could make it to China.

Funny, old man, you really got me that time.

That thought is interspersed with not wanting to live through the tragedy of losing my mother.

I saw and felt your pain, old man. I really did, and I fear my turn.